Anxiety Struggles

So, our rhetoricity paper is the 3rd assignment I have done this year that has actually caused me to have an anxiety attack.

Wait wait, calm down. I'm fine. I don't need a hospital or anything. I've been dealing with this for a while. I have this under control. No need for anyone to panic.
It's not writing that makes me anxious, it's the subjects. I'm hoping these assignments will eventually turn into some weird version of exposure therapy, but so far, no such luck.
That being said, it's not like I want to make myself anxious. My anxiety attacks aren't obvious to most, but that doesn't mean they're in any way pleasant. My typical instinct is to avoid the things that make me anxious. Maybe, since I've avoided them for such a long time, they're hitting me harder than if I had exposed myself to them in small bits consistently.
Now I know we weren't supposed to make ourselves uncomfortable, but this event changed me as a person, and it's something I can write about for a long enough time in enough detail to satisfy the requirements of the assignments.
Or maybe I'm doing this wrong. Maybe I'm doing this whole assignment the wrong way. Who knows. Hopefully I'm doing it correctly, because I already have so much of it written.
I'm also.... self-conscious about others reading about this experience. I'm worried people will look at me differently, or pity me.
I don't need pity. I would appreciate understanding, or that someone learn from my mistakes so they don't ever have to go through the same thing, or anything similar.

I guess the point of this is to show I'm putting a lot into my paper, and I don't want the subject to be taken lightly. And I don't want to be taken lightly. I don't know. Maybe I'm making a bigger deal out of this than I should, but this paper touches a sensitive subject for me, and every word I write is true.

Don't worry, I'll get past this. I've handled worse. Hopefully this doesn't stop me from writing my paper well.